A Year Later & BIG Prayer Request!!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Today marks a year since I started on this amazing journey called adoption. This last year has been full of every emotion there is as well as many many tears and prayers for a sweet little boy half way across the world waiting on his mommy to come get him!! When I started on this journey I thought I had a pretty good idea as to what the timeline would look like. I just knew 9 months into it I would have a referral and then 3 months later I would be traveling to meet my son. Ha, if only I knew then what I know now!! With that said I honestly never thought a year later I would still be waiting on a referral, but I know God's timing is perfect as he has shown me so many times. Over the last 12 months God's provision for this adoption has been been made so clear and I am so thankful that He is control and not my type A control freak self :)

The Lord has used this last year to grow my faith, teach me more about obedience and what it means to truly be still and wait on Him! There have been days where I have cried and pleaded with the Lord over this adoption, then there have been days where no matter what obstacles I have come up against I have been at peace knowing the Lord already knows when my sweet boy will join my family. He counts the hairs on his head, he knows his laugh, his smile, he comforts him at night, he keeps him safe and he WILL bring him home to his mommy and big brother who talk about him daily, pray for him every night and who love him with all our hearts!!

This all brings me to a huge prayer request. Sunday night I got a text from my good friend Lesley who works for my adoption agency. She wanted to know if I could come by the office on Monday morning to talk. I was tempted to freak out and call her immediately to find out what was going on but I felt the Lord telling me "calm down, I am already there" So I chose to just wait and talk to her in the morning. What she told me the next morning was definitely not what I wanted to hear!

Ethiopia is closing adoptions to single mothers. My heart sank! What did this mean?? I didn't cry, I didn't freak out, but on the inside my heart and mind were racing. Thankfully Lesley is awesome at giving me all the information available and making sure I have a clear understanding of every detail. Plus she is great at holding me accountable and reminding me that the Lord is in ultimate control. So what does this mean for my journey to bring Silas home??

As of right now there is not a definite date as to when adoptions will be stopped for single moms. Currently my dossier is #14 on the waiting list. As it stands right now I am going to continue on this journey in hopes that I will be able to finish this journey with bringing home my little boy!! There are LOTS of tiny details but honestly I don't feel comfortable sharing every little detail on the internet :) I hope ya'll understand!! I would be humbled if you would commit to joining me in praying for my adoption! I know that no matter how big the bumps are that I hit in this journey they are nothing compared to the God we serve who can move mountains!! I am believing that this is just another way God is going to be glorified as his power, grace and mercy are poured out over this adoption!!

I was telling my friend today it would be so easy for me to just give up and quit but the ache that I have felt in my heart since yesterday and the tears I cried as I thought of that precious little boy waiting for me, those keep me going, keep me fighting to bring my son home where he belongs!! At night I watch as Noah prays for his brother, asking God to keep him safe until he comes home. So much love in his heart for his little brother. I long for the day they are together, learning from eachother and playing together! I will not stop until he is home!!

"God will never give you more then you can handle? God will give us more then we can handle, because then we surrender to him and he takes over, proving himself by doing the impossible in our lives! All of this life requires more of him and less of me!" I am praying and clinging to Christ tonight and in the nights to come when I feel like the world is against me! Lord Jesus help me to always remember no matter who is against me YOU are for me and YOU are bigger then anything of the world!!

If you would like to join me in praying, there are some specific prayer request you can be praying for~

  • Pray that I will be able to finish my journey to bring Silas home

  • Pray that the updated paperwork I am waiting on comes soon and I am able to get everything in order for my referral

  • Pray the the Lord will continue to provide financially, specifically the $5,700 that I still need for my referral fee.

  • Pray that God will watch over Silas, keep him safe, healthy and comforted until the day he is in my arms forever

  • Pray that Ethiopia will allow the single mothers already in process to finish their adoptions and bring their children home

  • Pray that God will continue to be glorified through my adoption

  • Pray that I will stay focused on the Lord and continue to be obedient in all circumstances.

Thank you in advance for your prayers and support! I don't know what the future holds for my adoption but I do know that the Lord is already there and has every detail worked out!! The new song by Casting Crowns "Already There" ministers to my heart and I find myself listening to it daily :) I hope you enjoy listening to it as much as I do!!

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