Sick & Tired

Monday, February 20, 2012
There was really no other title that speaks more clearly of how I have felt the last few weeks. I am literally sick and tired of being sick and tired! Ever since coming home from Ethiopia I have been sick, dealing with stomach issues, fatigue, headaches, head congestion to the point I feel like I am in a big fog and two weeks ago I was diagnosed with Pneumonia. I thought for sure once I started the antibiotic for the Pneumonia I would feel better, no such luck :( A week after being on medicine I still couldn't kick my cough and shortness of breath, to the point that I had to take a real deep breath in after every couple of tiny breaths. I ended up back in the ER where the doctor thought I might have a blood clot in my lung! To say I was scared is an understatement!! I was hysterical!! Being a nurse I know the severity of that and all I could keep thinking was "I was going to die" I am thankful my mom was with me and God love her she was scared too but wasn't showing it. She kept telling me I was going to be fine and not to worry. My mom, the pillar of strength!!

It took two nurses to get an IV in me and then I was quickly taken to get a CT scan done of my head and chest. I remember lying there crying, just praying that the Lord would restore my health. I had texted a couple of my good friends aka prayer warriors :) these ladies mean so much to me and not only am I thankful for their friendships but for their willingness to take my needs to the Father as well. I knew that no matter what happened God was in ultimate control and I had to be okay with whatever his plan was. Which let's face it, is not always easy!  

The waiting seemed forever. I sat there thinking about what the doctor was going to say, and was scared to move, let alone cough, scared if I did have a clot, my moving/coughing would cause it to travel somewhere even worse. I have never been so scared in my entire life. Finally the doctor came in and no lie his first question was "So how are you feeling" Seriously buddy?!?! How do you think I am feeling?? He then told me I did NOT have any clots, but that my Pneumonia was STILL hanging around and he was going to prescribe me a stronger antibiotic and an inhaler. I just sat there crying and thanking God for watching over me and answering my prayers!!

I took the next couple of days and rested. I went to Whole Foods and picked up a good strong Multi Vitamin as well as a Probiotic to start taking. I am DETERMINED to get myself healthy!! I also plan on changing my diet for a while to a more natural, whole food eating, and am going to pick up a parasite cleanser from Whole Foods as well just in case I picked something up while in Ethiopia.

I have never been one to put myself first, and I have never taken real good care of myself. I blame it on never really having the extra time, but something the Lord has taught me over the last few weeks of sickness is that I can't be 100% when it comes to being a Mommy if I am not taking care of myself!!

Isaiah 58:11 "The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."

If you think about it I would be humbled if you would keep me in your prayers for my health over the next couple of weeks as I continue to try new things to get myself feeling better. I know the stress of not having my baby home is not helping and I continue to remind myself that God's timing is perfect and Isaiah will come home at the perfect time. Thank you friends for praying for me! You have no idea how much they mean to me!