I recently finished reading the book Choosing To SEE by Mary Beth Chapman. I can not even put into words how awesome the book was. Numerous times I found myself reading into the wee hours because I just could not put the book down! Tears often ran down my face as I read the words that seem to only be able to come from the heart of a mommy! It is an amazing book filled with words of encouragement and hope for those times that we just don't think we can survive or those times where all we want to do is yell at God. As much as I don't want to admit it, I have had those moments in my own life, more then I would like. Her faith inspires me and I high recommend if you haven't read her book, do so soon!
While her book came from the tragic loss of their sweet daughter Maria, she speaks about so much more of her life. Her childhood, marriage, struggles as a wife and mother and her relationship with God. Her book not only inspired me but it made me start to really look at my own life and what areas I need to choose to SEE where God was leading me. So many times I think we choose NOT to SEE because it either hurts to much or we just don't have enough FAITH in ourselves or in God to really BELIEVE in HIM and what HE can DO!!
Those close to me know that these last few months have been some pretty tough months for me. True colors have been shown and I have been forced to accept that not everyone and everything is as it seems. As much as it has hurt, I have had to deal with it and move on. Through God and his Faithfulness I have learned so much these last few months and he has made clear to me the path for this next chapter. He has placed wonderful people into my life, who I pray I can continue to build close friendships with as well as placed different opportunities in both my life and Noah's life that I know will not only help us grow but what will also be a encouragement as we continue on our journey to bring Noah's little brother home!!
I think so many times we choose not to see because we know if we see what God is really trying to show us, the change that comes with that will be hard, sometimes we think it will be too hard. What we forget is that our God is bigger then any change we deal with on this earth and we must choose to always place our lives, plans, hopes and dreams in HIS hands and CHOOSE to FOLLOW his calling for our life, even if that calling means changing things in our lives that we never wanted to change! I guess you could say that is where I am in my life right now. Things have had to change. Things that I never thought would need to change, but God is showing me one small piece at a time that this change is only going to bring bigger and better opportunities for my life and Noah's life.
I know change is never easy, and trust me some of the things God is wanting me to change scares me a little bit (I have never been one for change, lol I am OCD like that) Some of areas that need changing is going to take a lot of effort on my part, a lot of prayer and a lot of relying on God and strength that can only come from HIM! As always I covet your prayers. This adoption journey has turned into a journey about so much more then just bringing a little guy into our family! I pray that God continues to mold mine and Noah's hearts and minds so that we may continue to be lights for God in a world that is often so dark.
Experience With Stitches
Sunday, February 20, 2011
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Last week was a busy one! I was starting my new job on Wednesday, so I knew I had Monday and Tuesday to get all my appointments scheduled for Noah and I. Everything went great! Busy but great :) That is until Tuesday rolled around and it was time to go for Noah's appointment with the dermatologist! My little buddy had a small mole on his leg that had started to change color and I wanted to get it looked at. As you can see in the picture below Noah was not too excited about being there :(
Thankfully the doctor informed me the mole was not at a point yet where there was cause for concern, but with the history of skin cancer in my family she felt it best to remove it to be on the safe side and to put this mommy's mind at ease! This of course did not excite my little guy at all!! He didn't really understand what was going to happen but he was pretty sure it was going to hurt :( I was happy to find out that they put numbing creme on his mole and had us leave for a couple of hours and then come back, giving it time to numb up the area on his leg. Making the shot part a little easier on him! The doctor had said she had a lot of kiddos who had brought their DS with them and while playing she was able to do the procedure without them really feeling or knowing anything, so of course after we left we went straight home to get his DS as well as picked up his Grammy for some moral support for this mommy who was beside myself with worry, while trying to stay strong for my boy!
We had made a stop at Build A Bear before heading back to the doctor and let Noah get a new buddy to keep him company while getting his procedure done. Noah was still freaking out a little bit about getting stitches until the lady helping him put the fluff in his new dog told him she was now going to "stitch" his new puppy up so he wouldn't lose his stuffing. I immediately took that opportunity to tell Noah "see your puppy got stitches and he was okay" I was actually glad she had used that terminology. The funny thing is she had no idea when she said it :) We got to the doctor and Noah did really well. He cried for a little bit when he had to get a shot to finish numbing the area but after that having his DS really did help keep his mind busy and off of what was going on! At one point he did ask the doctor is she was almost done and then told her she was pushing too hard on his leg and she really needed to stop! The doctor just looked at me and I nicely told her Noah doesn't have a problem telling people what is on his mind :)
All in all it was a successful trip. He had to get 5 stitches and he is anxiously awaiting his trip back this Thursday to get those suckers out! Of course after we left we made a stop at Red Robin for lunch and for a balloon :) I was so proud of my big boy and I feel so much better knowing that little mole is gone and I can stop worrying about it!
Thankfully the doctor informed me the mole was not at a point yet where there was cause for concern, but with the history of skin cancer in my family she felt it best to remove it to be on the safe side and to put this mommy's mind at ease! This of course did not excite my little guy at all!! He didn't really understand what was going to happen but he was pretty sure it was going to hurt :( I was happy to find out that they put numbing creme on his mole and had us leave for a couple of hours and then come back, giving it time to numb up the area on his leg. Making the shot part a little easier on him! The doctor had said she had a lot of kiddos who had brought their DS with them and while playing she was able to do the procedure without them really feeling or knowing anything, so of course after we left we went straight home to get his DS as well as picked up his Grammy for some moral support for this mommy who was beside myself with worry, while trying to stay strong for my boy!
We had made a stop at Build A Bear before heading back to the doctor and let Noah get a new buddy to keep him company while getting his procedure done. Noah was still freaking out a little bit about getting stitches until the lady helping him put the fluff in his new dog told him she was now going to "stitch" his new puppy up so he wouldn't lose his stuffing. I immediately took that opportunity to tell Noah "see your puppy got stitches and he was okay" I was actually glad she had used that terminology. The funny thing is she had no idea when she said it :) We got to the doctor and Noah did really well. He cried for a little bit when he had to get a shot to finish numbing the area but after that having his DS really did help keep his mind busy and off of what was going on! At one point he did ask the doctor is she was almost done and then told her she was pushing too hard on his leg and she really needed to stop! The doctor just looked at me and I nicely told her Noah doesn't have a problem telling people what is on his mind :)
All in all it was a successful trip. He had to get 5 stitches and he is anxiously awaiting his trip back this Thursday to get those suckers out! Of course after we left we made a stop at Red Robin for lunch and for a balloon :) I was so proud of my big boy and I feel so much better knowing that little mole is gone and I can stop worrying about it!
Happy Valentine's Day!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
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Jesus replied: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it. Love your neighbor as yourself" Matthew 22:37-39
Bittersweet Day & Adoption Prayer Request
Sunday, February 13, 2011
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For the last 15 months I have worked for a hospital as a PCA (patient care assistant) and have been beyond blessed with a manager that has always worked with me on my schedule when I was finishing up school. After graduating nursing school last July I struggled to find the "right" job for me as a nurse. I couldn't find any jobs that were first shift or that offered good and inexpensive health insurance. I always knew God would place the right job in my path, I just had to be patient :) For those of you who know me know that is not always easy for me!
It was hard for me to work as a PCA when I was actually a licensed nurse but my job at the hospital offered great health insurance and the schedule wasn't too bad. I worked 3 days a week 12hr shifts. I didn't love the schedule, as it caused me to miss dinner and bedtime with Noah which I hated and sometimes would cause me to miss church, but I tried my best to stay positive, praying that when the time was right God would bless me with the perfect job for me.
A couple of weeks ago on a Thursday I got a phone call asking me to interview for a full time position at a pediatrician's office working as a nurse!! I was of course beyond excited and immediately began praying for God's will and guidance. I scheduled my interview for the following Monday. Two days later that Saturday is when I got severely sick!!! You remember that post, Ha! I was deathly ill and in bed for 5 days straight!! That Monday (the day of my interview) I could barely move, let alone even think about driving myself 25 minutes across town to a job interview!! I allowed the thought of rescheduling into my brain for all of about 5 seconds and then I decided I had to go and that I would just pray for God to give me the strength. My mom was kind enough to ride along with me to make sure I didn't pass out behind the wheel. I forced myself to dress up, put make up on, fix my hair and put on a smile all while praying I didn't pass out or throw up or both while at my interview!!
I honestly don't remember a lot about my interview :) except that I did my best, considering how horrible I felt!! Working with children has always been a huge passion of mine, so the thought of being able to work in a pediatrician's office helped me get through the interview!! I wanted the job bad!! Everything went good and the lady who interviewed me told me I should hear something in a couple of days. I continued to pray and rest in knowing that no matter what I wanted, God's plans were better then mine.
Two days later I got the call that I had gotten the job!!!! Praise God!!!! I was so excited!!!! Not only was it better money, but it also offered good insurance, the office is only 8 minutes from my house AND it is Monday through Friday 8-5!!! Ya'll seriously don't understand what having a set schedule means to me!!! It is awesome :) SO this past Friday was my last day at the hospital! It was seriously a bittersweet day. Working there has been so much fun, and I really learned so much from the other nurses there. I am seriously going to miss the nurses I worked with, my manager and the different experiences I got to be a part of BUT I am so looking forward to this next chapter and getting to work with kids of all ages while using my skills that I went to school for. God is good and so faithful!!
Adoption Prayer Request Please: I really can't go into a lot of details right now but I would love to ask you all to please be praying for me and my adoption. I knew before I started this process that I would have to do a lot of fundraising to help with the cost. Being a single parent didn't help when it came to the money part, but I knew God would supply all my needs to help bring my little guy home!!
Unfortunately things have NOT been going as I thought they would. I have done 4 different fundraisers since last November and have only been able to raise about $500.00 I understand to some that may sound like a lot and please understand I am VERY thankful to EVERYONE who has donated but the fact about adoption is it is very costly. I have been trying my hardest to raise the money to get my application sent off to USCIS for my fingerprints but have not been able to raise enough money.
As of today I have $405 saved/raised toward the $850 it is going to cost me to send in my application. I know that God will provide and that is a constant thought in my head and my heart as I continue to pray that the funds will be provided so I can get my application sent in sooner rather then later. I have been so close for the last month to getting the final documents taken care of so I can finally get my dossier sent off!!!
I am a big believer in the power of prayer!! It would mean so much to me if ya'll would join me in praying for some movement in my adoption process. I know God will work everything out in his timing, I just pray that "something" can happen soon that will move me one step closer to Ethiopia!! Thank you in advance for your prayers and support!! It means so much!!
Hope ya'll are having a great weekend!! I am off to relax with my boy before heading back to church tonight for bible drill :)
It was hard for me to work as a PCA when I was actually a licensed nurse but my job at the hospital offered great health insurance and the schedule wasn't too bad. I worked 3 days a week 12hr shifts. I didn't love the schedule, as it caused me to miss dinner and bedtime with Noah which I hated and sometimes would cause me to miss church, but I tried my best to stay positive, praying that when the time was right God would bless me with the perfect job for me.
A couple of weeks ago on a Thursday I got a phone call asking me to interview for a full time position at a pediatrician's office working as a nurse!! I was of course beyond excited and immediately began praying for God's will and guidance. I scheduled my interview for the following Monday. Two days later that Saturday is when I got severely sick!!! You remember that post, Ha! I was deathly ill and in bed for 5 days straight!! That Monday (the day of my interview) I could barely move, let alone even think about driving myself 25 minutes across town to a job interview!! I allowed the thought of rescheduling into my brain for all of about 5 seconds and then I decided I had to go and that I would just pray for God to give me the strength. My mom was kind enough to ride along with me to make sure I didn't pass out behind the wheel. I forced myself to dress up, put make up on, fix my hair and put on a smile all while praying I didn't pass out or throw up or both while at my interview!!
I honestly don't remember a lot about my interview :) except that I did my best, considering how horrible I felt!! Working with children has always been a huge passion of mine, so the thought of being able to work in a pediatrician's office helped me get through the interview!! I wanted the job bad!! Everything went good and the lady who interviewed me told me I should hear something in a couple of days. I continued to pray and rest in knowing that no matter what I wanted, God's plans were better then mine.
Two days later I got the call that I had gotten the job!!!! Praise God!!!! I was so excited!!!! Not only was it better money, but it also offered good insurance, the office is only 8 minutes from my house AND it is Monday through Friday 8-5!!! Ya'll seriously don't understand what having a set schedule means to me!!! It is awesome :) SO this past Friday was my last day at the hospital! It was seriously a bittersweet day. Working there has been so much fun, and I really learned so much from the other nurses there. I am seriously going to miss the nurses I worked with, my manager and the different experiences I got to be a part of BUT I am so looking forward to this next chapter and getting to work with kids of all ages while using my skills that I went to school for. God is good and so faithful!!
Adoption Prayer Request Please: I really can't go into a lot of details right now but I would love to ask you all to please be praying for me and my adoption. I knew before I started this process that I would have to do a lot of fundraising to help with the cost. Being a single parent didn't help when it came to the money part, but I knew God would supply all my needs to help bring my little guy home!!
Unfortunately things have NOT been going as I thought they would. I have done 4 different fundraisers since last November and have only been able to raise about $500.00 I understand to some that may sound like a lot and please understand I am VERY thankful to EVERYONE who has donated but the fact about adoption is it is very costly. I have been trying my hardest to raise the money to get my application sent off to USCIS for my fingerprints but have not been able to raise enough money.
As of today I have $405 saved/raised toward the $850 it is going to cost me to send in my application. I know that God will provide and that is a constant thought in my head and my heart as I continue to pray that the funds will be provided so I can get my application sent in sooner rather then later. I have been so close for the last month to getting the final documents taken care of so I can finally get my dossier sent off!!!
I am a big believer in the power of prayer!! It would mean so much to me if ya'll would join me in praying for some movement in my adoption process. I know God will work everything out in his timing, I just pray that "something" can happen soon that will move me one step closer to Ethiopia!! Thank you in advance for your prayers and support!! It means so much!!
Hope ya'll are having a great weekend!! I am off to relax with my boy before heading back to church tonight for bible drill :)
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